So I really was worried of how to start a blog because I might do it wrong. Then God told me to just write my heart.
I’m gonna start with the last two years. I have been pleading to God to allow me to go full time into ministry, but never feeling the release from my job. I have been up and down with God my whole life. At the end of 2009 I heard God ask me if I was really ready to commit my life to Him. "Yes God I am" He told me ok for 2010 I want you to fast... O.k. so I have never made it past 2 days doing a fast and you want me to do one for 365 days?? God I'm not strong enough for that, but I can try what would I fast??
Seeing how at the time I was trying to find a way to go to cosmetology school for skin care and makeup He said "Fast makeup for a year." WHAT?!?!?!?! God I... AAAHH...BUT... sigh!!! O.k.
I didn’t think I would make it the whole year, but He knew more then I did. That year was the best year of my life. I dug deep into the Song of Solomon. I always loved God because it was the right thing to do, because He loved me first…. But I never knew how much He loved me, the way He saw me and the way I was allowed to love Him in return...
By Jan of 2011, I was burning even more for full time ministry... “God why will you not release me from my job to go full time at the Orlando House of Prayer?” I asked. But it just wasn’t time.
I continued to be faithful to the Lord and give all of myself to Him and hold nothing back...
Finally, in May, He started speaking to me to let me know the desires of my Heart & His would soon come to past. He told me in August I would be going full time. Well my flesh said ok I need to find a way to go full time but still provide as a single mother. Oh perfect I will just go to college because then I can do skin care and make up and get enough money from the government to be full time at (OHOP) For some reason things weren’t working out with that.
God I don’t understand you said it was time but this isn’t working? “Did you ask me if I wanted you to go to school?” I heard Him ask. Well no but why wouldn’t you... “Ask Me He said.”
Ok God you want me to go to school right?” “No” He said. Hmmm Ok so there goes al my plans (FYI He likes to do that to you to see your faith and commitment to him)
God told me I was going full time in August and I was going to home school Lillyana (Which is a testimony in itself, we will touch that one another time.) God I will step out you just make a way. Lets fast forward to August 12th, 2011 this was the last day at my job I had been at for 3 years. I started this past Monday as full time intercessor missionary at Ohop. Praise GOD! He is so faithful. I am leaning on Him big time to provide the prayers and finances to provide for Lillyana and me. I know He is always faithful and I put my complete trust in Him...
I will keep you updated often to share with all who reads how this chapter is being written out.
If you feel the Lord pressing on your heart to become apart of this chapter with Lillyana, Jesus & Myself feel free to contact me thru email at Ashley.bellerose@orlandohop.org.
I am sooooo excited!! Jesus I love you, your faithfulness leads me perfectly and has rescued me.
